Ingredients

Its not easy trying to enjoy this holiday,
I want to spend time with my eldest son.
My youngest deserves my attention as well,
this maybe our last family holiday together.
More holidays will come,
i will always see my boys.
I have to follow my heart,
she knows that but can't understand it.
Well as long as i understand it,
that's all that matters to me.
One life one chance and no regrets,
life happiness and love.
The three key ingredients,
to give us both what we are looking for.
A minute away
I stare at the clock,
the roof, the mirror.
and the fan circling
above my head
much like my mind..

Should I make
a wish in sixty seconds

or should I
let it pass by,
like all the other times
I hoped I could keep you?